Thursday, May 13, 2004

WOAH! They really rejiggered this site.

Well, classes are over, finals are done, now it is just waiting and packing, and working, and sleeping and cleaning out the refridgerator, and then college is officially over. In these waning days, I am a mixture of two feelings, an unequal liquid of joy and unexpected sadness. As you can guess, the joy vastly outweighs the sadness, but somewhere along the way, this place that I have cleverly derided so much has creeped into the good column. I have to remember it in winter to get it back in the bad column, but there are things I will miss, things that I will never probably see again, or at least experience in the same way: as a student here. There are people I will absolutely never see again, and while I am not approaching leaving as anything big, it is weird to think that as I exit the room or store or building, this is the last time I will see them. Forever. Mostly I am fine with that, but it is a strange feeling.

This last semester has not been my best; I got wrapped up in it being the end, and slacked off on many of the small factors that make or break a grade. If I could redo it, I would, but I can't so I have to be content with that decision. I am done, now, I am one inch closer to being an adult, one inch closer to death (not to sound morbid) and my life is one silhouette closer to making a shape. These milestones are important, for what they measure and what they lack. That's all for this chapter of the book. I may post again before I leave, but then again, I may not.